The big day is finally here.... As expected, when I woke up this morning, I couldn't go back to slp. Was feeling jittery all morning. Shivering.... Damn afraid and nervous....

Before entering sch, went to meet serene and nicole... was so damn anxious... principal talked crap and so much rubbish... and finally!!! time to receive results. We were given the yr bk, ITE bklet and JAE bklet with the results slip faced down on top of the stack of things we received.... When it was my turn... I was so damn nervous. Hands were trembling when I was signing the class list.

Then, I wanted to open my results in a corner.. away from everyone... But a whole gang of pple were following me, wanting to know my results.... Was cornered at the railings of the study area.... There, I started to tremble... Like mad... With everyone crowding ard, the pressure was greater. With a deep breath, I flipped over the results slip.

I took a quick glance at all my grades.... And felt my whole body becoming numb.. A tingling sensation surged thru my body. I lost all sense of touch... Felt my legs giving way... Hands were shaking like mad... Was grabbing Elliot's hands tighter and tighter as each second passed... I trembled and shook like i nvr did before. Even felt the tingling sensation all the way to my ears and head... My mind was blank... Couldn't count how many points I had... And Samuel helped me count.... While waiting for him to count, I just felt so shaky. Could barely support myself. Just trembling, trembling, trembling....

"14....." I felt a surge of relief. Was so damn happy... Got what I almost expected... The numbness was still in me... Slowly disappearing.... Jacinda and Sarah was helping me massage my fingers... Totally lost feelings there... Thank goodness for them... A huge relief... It's over...

English : B3
Combined Humanities : D7
Elementary Mathematics : A2
Additional Mathematics : A2
Physics : B4
Chemistry : B3
Biology : C6
Chinese : C6
CCA : A1

L1R5: 21 points
L1R4: 11 points
L1B4: 14 points

Sigh... And now, I dunno where to go....

If I go to....

JC: I'll probably die there.... Can't cope well, can't manage time well. CCA should not be a problem. Subject combination I'll probably end up taking the Arts de.... coz of my grades.. But I'll die doing Arts subject. Science is my cuppa tea... The PE there will kill me coz of my leg problem.
Possible JCs : PJC, CJC

Poly: Wanna do Biomedical Sciences but afraid i can't enter the faculty. Any Science subject would suffice.... As long as i can enter and can go Uni.... But Science is in high demand now... What happens if the cut off points are higher this yr? And I suay suay cannot enter? Sigh...
Possible Polys : NP, SP

The rest [ITE/CIs], won't even be interested in thinking....

Comments/Advice?

Sigh.. Tmr is the big day.. Whether I'll make it or not... Sigh...

*crosses fingers*

Sigh... Monday I'll be receiving my results... Bound to be horrid. Just read thru all my entries made each day after each paper... Now, even my hopes got getting less than 20 is dashed... Sigh... So damn freaking afraid...

Last nite, i even dreamt that I was taking some practical exam.. Only thing that the exam was conducted in the multi-storey carpark.. Aiyah.. Very wierd jiu shi le... Is this some warning.. A warning that i'll be taking the exams again?? Sigh..

Sigh... So much speculations. Different people say it's on different days... Some say the 25th, others the 28th.. When is it? Will MOE juz announce and stop keeping everyone in suspense?

Stomach's been hurting recently. Dunno y. Cannot be gastric coz before and after dinner it also occurs. Pain.....

Worried bout results. What happens if it's not up to what i expect? Where can i go? What happens if i can't enter the courses that i want to? How??

sigh.....

O level results are almost out soon.

Shit.

Freaking nervous.

Where to go if I don't do as well as I expect?

-Goner-

Haha.. It's that time of the year again... The day i turn old.. Hehe... Lol.. Had a rather ok-ok morning.. Went to SP's open hse wit johan... Met him @ ard 10.. and den we went to tour the booths area.. *sigh*.. it was again, not as what i would expect it to be... kinda messy and everyone cramped into that small area... as i went to every booth, i felt so like a fool.. serene and nicole asked me to help them take a set of all the courses that they had.. so i did...

"excuse me.. can i have two more sets of these please? my friends would like to find out more bout your courses but unfortunately they're unable to attend as they are overseas..."

felt so kiasu man... den went for lunch at their food court.. ate the chicken rice there... it was so-so.. tot it would taste fantastic.. but nahx... after lunch, guess who i saw... nicole.. that bimbo... she asked me to help her take the brochures and there she is, standing right before me.. idiot... hehe.. but luckily she din take any of their brouchures so i juz dumped the whole stack of hers to her.. hehe.. and somehow, we got ushered in to the convention centre for some lunch time performances...

tot it would be smthing great.. but no.. it was so damn sucky... the first performance made my hair stand... nicole was giggling and johan was trying to hide his luffter.. hehe...oh well.. after that, we sent nicole to the bus stop as she needed to go to work.. me and johan walked all the way to clementi area from dover.. grr.. the sun was sooo the damn blardy scorching hot... and we had to walk soooo far... oh well.. hehe.. den got to sch for peer tutoring...

enjoyed tutoring the pple today.. haha.. dunno y but juz felt happy doing that.. hehe... after that, again, walked under the evening sun to the bus stop outside MINDEF to take 175.. 67 was taking ages.. den went for music class... stupid teacher... always start late, end early.. gonna take my grade 7 exams soon... sigh... she even wanna restrict the songs i'm playing. ya. she got a point there. but it's not what i enjoy playing. how? should i play what is meant to be or what i want it to be?!

oh well.. after organ, came hm, rest for awhile den met my parents at lot one to shop for clothes.. bought a billabong tshirt and a levis khaki pants.. sigh.. but i need more tops.. prob gotta go shopping this wkend...

Special thanks to those pple for ur b'dae greeting...